Homesick
Oh I'm missing home something awful...I've never been away from home this long before. When I was dancing it up in Boston I'd fly or drive home for Christmas/Thanksgiving. Friends would come up for dance shows and birthday's or just because. And my mom would fly up for EVERY dance performance which was like two or three times a year. So I didn't have to go too long without a family or friend fix.
I've been here a year and 2 months and I've not seen a friend or family member since May 2005. Wow. It's hard sometimes...I'm an only child raised by mom in a small family. And the majority of my friends are dancers or close friends from waaay back in elementary school (yeah Jasmine!).
I miss home. I miss Maryland and D.C. : The atmosphere, the trees, the scenery, the city, the sites, the buzz, the subway, the diversity the dancing.
I've got about five dance friends who all had babies recently and now that I'm in the mommy club, it would be nice to see them and hang out and do whatever dance mom's do.
I miss the seasons. The cherry trees on the Mall, the Potomac River, Dupont Circle in the Spring, the snow slushing, the orange and reds and dark yellows of the Fall foliage, and the beaches...
I miss my Grama's cheeks, and nights on my Aunt Teena's porch drinking red wine and laughing too loud about stupid stuff--- I miss my mommy.
I miss the familiarity of Maryland. Knowing that it's MY home. I know the side streets and off routes to take to get to so and so. It's my territory. It's my home.
I miss Adams Morgan and the plethora of restaurants: Indian food, Mediterranean, African, Italian, Mexican...mmmm good eats indeed.
I miss the diversity in people and the metro: Bike messengers with mo-hawks, people of ALL races and nationalities, the gay community, the Latin clubs (I must Salsa!!), the hustle and bustle of it all.
I miss all that Maryland has to offer. I mean you've got Baltimore, Takoma Park, Bethesda, D.C. and Virginia is right around the corner and so is PA and New York city isn't a bad drive either. There's so much to learn and do and see and take in...the caverns in VA, the Smithsonian in D.C., the dance in Bethesda, the poetry in Takoma Park, the aquarium in Baltimore...
Going home next month will be overwhelming, overdue and all so beautiful. There are SO many people I have to see and SO many places I need to go-a month is really needed but I will take what I can get and two weeks it is.
Going home will also be very special because it's where Michael and I fell in love. We've got secret places that we'll need to revisit, special restaurants, and trails and roads we'll need to trek on. I need to go back to be reminded of how special our time was there--the beginning of our lives together. Just him and me. For a time no one even knew we were a couple. We had hideaways and getaways and secret talks and beautiful love that only we knew of. That happened in Maryland. And being pregnant makes it even more special a whole two years later.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining I'm just homesick...
I am a firm believer that Everything Happens For A Reason. So I'm not regretful that I live in Visalia, I'm just needing a dose familiarity...I need a hug from home.
posted by tiff @ 10:24 AM
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